Wednesday I left the tearoom to begin a new career journey as a graphic designer out in Enfield, CT. However, the day did not turn out as expected and it just spiraled out of control and became a tearful emotional mess. First, I was trying to speak to a co-worker of mine about the studio situation and the events unfolded and she ended up just getting up mid-conversation just leaving me there confused. Apparently she didn’t like how I was talking about it. But I was emotional that day because the drama that ensued over the weekend and starting my new job all the emotions caught up to me and for whatever reason it left me really emotionally upset the way that incident was carried out. So I thought I was OK but I was still having trouble holding it all together after that incident, but the psychic I sat next to by the window suddenly started something with me about how she was apparently receiving ‘negative thoughts’ from me and she was fed up with trying to just be my friend. She continued to yell and swear at me saying that I didn’t know ‘what it was like to be her’. I told her to get the fuck off my back because I was really fucking overwhelmed with transitioning and starting a new JOB. Thankfully, my boss took notice and yelled at her and took my side of things. I just couldn’t believe it because I did NOTHING to agitate her. If I did accidentally send any sort of negative mental energy, GEE I’M SORRY IT’S NOT LIKE THE LIFE I WORKED HARD FOR FOR THE PAST YEAR ISN’T FALLING APART OR ANYTHING FOR AN OPPORTUNITY IN MY FIELD THAT I WENT TO SCHOOL FOR THAT MAY ONLY LAST FOR TWO MONTHS. GEE, I’M SORRY THAT I WAS SO WRAPPED UP IN MY OWN STRUGGLES THAT I DIDN’T CONSIDER WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE YOU. GEE, I’M SORRY NOT SORRY. Generally speaking, I just don’t like this individual. I, generally don’t like to associate myself with individuals that don’t GET IT or just don’t have their act together. I act friendly to them, because I have to WORK WITH THEM. I’m not acting friendly towards you because I want to be your friend. We don’t hang out after work and have hardly anything in common. And I really don’t appreciate the ‘woe, is me’ attitude. I have my own struggles to deal with and I don’t need your shit. I will try to understand as much as I can, but I just don’t have the energy to get involved in everyone’s mess. BUT of course, do you know what time it is? It’s mercury fucking retrograde time. And its in the sign of scorpio, my rising sign. Which means everything that I do socially speaking becomes reversed – and boy did I feel it that day. The co-worker I mentioned in the beginning and I usually go out after work to decompress and stop at mckyd’s and just talk. Well, to my surprise she didn’t want to do that and that sent me through another emotional roller coaster. Then I had to go have a talk with one of the managers that was working that day that I was close to because I seriously had no fucking clue what the fuck happened that day and was just devastated by the way day turned out. I guess I was hoping for a fun, relaxed day that was somewhat drama-free because of the drama over the weekend with the studios. I’m trying to move on from it but my mind is still pretty in shock about the events that unfolded that day. Thank GOD I have a new job to take my mind off of there for awhile.
Kristi Beisecker is a graphic designer, photographer, printmaker and alternative scientist whose interested in making images through two contrasting elements. She is also a blogger in lifestyle, travel, wellness and health, art and design, beauty and fashion.
