So my business project prediction did come true after all… 😉
Anyway. Been a bit better lately, not so stressed/overwhelmed… but I got nothing done in the past week, so I don’t know why I feel better lol.
Ugh. You know what sucks? Its gonna cost $225 to park at the HILL next year! I only need to be there for one semester! I’m not paying $225 for three months… $150 would be more reasonable for three months, but not $225… maybe I’ll split that w/ my parents, I don’t know.
I’m also excited that my parents have been looking for houses on Cape Cod. I have spent my summers growing up on Cape Cod ever since I was 6 months old. Its been a big part of my life, and I’m actually thinking about maybe trying to have a summer studio there at some point. The arts community there is terrific and the area is so inspiring, especially Provincetown; the tip of Cape Cod. Provincetown is an old fishing town, so there’s a lot of history to it as well. There’s even a pirates museum!!
If I don’t think about it, it doesn’t really get to me that much, but I’m actually really frustrated with life. So much is out of my control, and I can’t see the end result. Those who don’t know, I’m a bit of a clairvoyant so I see and feel things before they happen. One reason why I do tarot, it’s a tool to help me better understand my “visions/feelings”. If I can’t see/feel a result in a situation it freaks me out or frustrates me. I can’t see past December of this year, and after this December is 2012. I do usually just go with the flow and live life and not worry too much about the future, but being a clairvoyant, its hard, extremely hard to NOT pay attention to the future, because the future is always paying attention to you!!
I’m just trying to keep myself busy, and even now its hard to do so.